Coffee or tea this morning?

Ahhh, decisions decisions.

I got told I have nice legs today, woo :)! Haha!

novalord2 asked:
I am so, so sorry that you experienced this. Remember, anyone who tries to blame you for it is completely full of shit, and you should drop them. If you haven't talked to counselor or something about this, you really need to. Please, it will help you. You cannot let something like this fester in your mind.

Ha, yeah, I already know it’s not my fault, but thank you though. I haven’t talked to a counselor about it, I honestly don’t really think about it much unless the subject or the person is brought up, but other than that, I try to keep as far from my mind as possible because I know it would only make things worse if I didn’t. I honestly didn’t want to go to the police. I didn’t even want to tell my parents, and when I did, I had a complete breakdown, but a close friend of mine pretty much said that if I don’t go to the police it just gives him the opportunity to do it again, and possibly even take it further. My parents gave me the option, but they preferred that I did, and my step mom went with me because it was such a touchy subject. He still only got off with a warning though, and that’s what I hate. I hate the thought that he could do the same thing, if not worse, to someone else. I makes me sick. I really appreciate your concern though <3.

I feel so sick this morning.. I’m sitting here, in front of work, eating my butter croissant and drinking my coffee from starbucks, and I feel like all of this is just going to come back up. Ugh, that last drink last night was not a good idea.

Okay, so I’m pretty buzzed right now, so excuse my typing if it’s pretty bad, but we were at the neighbor’s and he’s a cop, and somehow we got on the subject of rape and all that stuff, and like, okay, a year ago or so, my sister’s best friend, whom I thought of as a brother sexually assaulted me, and when I went to go file a police report, he got off with a warning. That was it. I thought of this fool as a fucking brother, and he fucking touched me and treated me like I was just some girl of the fucking night, so when we got on the subject of rape, my step mom and I started talking about how sexual assault is like, nothing to cops, and it’s just kind of brushed aside, but our neighbor said it’s really not, and then he went on to say about how he got a call one time where this bitch lied about being kidnapped and raped on Halloween night. Apparently she was out with her boyfriend past her curfew, and she got all scared and lied. Well, I called one of my really good friends, one of the few that knows what happened, and started crying to her about how it’s bitches like these that ruin it for everyone, so pretty much, if you’re one of these dumbass stupid bitches, I fucking hate you. Like, not the hate where I say I hate you, but in the morning I’m like, “Okay, I don’t hate you, I just said I did because I was drunk.” No, I literally fucking HATE YOU! Because you’re the stupid bitches that cause guys like this to get off with no charges, no record, fucking nothing!!! They’re free to do the same thing they did to me, to whomever the fuck they want. All because of you damn bitches, so yes, I fucking HATE YOU with the goddamn passion, and I hope you burn in fucking hell.

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